It all started about two or three years ago. I've always been interested in anything to do with the Second Coming of Christ and the end times. I've always been a God-fearing believer which led me to explore the Internet, looking up prophecies about Jesus' Second Coming.
Initially, I surfed Youtube looking up videos about the "rapture" and wondered about how it would be and whether it would happen in our lifetime. I stumbled upon a site one day that talked about the end times, which fascinated me. It also had this little online store in which I purchased a wooden Rosary. The admin of that site somehow talked me into checking out the website I had never heard about before, called thewarningsecondcoming.com.
My spiritual adventure started with a mistake, a really big mistake. I came across Maria Divine Mercy’s messages while searching on Google. At the time I was interested in anything but the faith. Even so, I began reading them.
Initially, I found the messages interesting because they spoke about the future, the love of God, the Apocalypse - and I was curious how it was all going to work out. Curiosity got the better of me though it would be a long time before I would admit it.
After I read that article, in particular the points about automatic excommunication, I felt an interior silence. It was then time for me to drive my children to school (1/2 hour trip) during which I was pondering what I had just read.
Whilst I was driving, I saw and felt myself being separated from God, and a question was put to me, “Is this what you want?” In response, I had an overwhelming feeling of grief and from the depths of my soul, there issued out a deep cry... ”no!” I cant even begin the utter grief I felt when I cried out “no” to this question. It is something I will never forget. I immediately went to confession on my return home and have since walked away from these messages and their associated prayers.
The Holy Spirit is the author of Canon Law, so would our Lord tell us do do something (in this case rebel against our Holy Father and thereby falling into schism) which violates His own Canon Law thereby excluding us from the sacraments, the very means of our salvation?
It would be ironic if this message was indeed one of the many false prophecies as predicted by Jesus when He said that "many will come in my name".
It is not up to us, the sheep to do anything but pray and trust. If the worst was to eventuate, that we would have an anti-pope, God himself would take care of the matter, just as he will take care of the matter when the Anti-Christ comes around. Don't forget that whatever purification happens, it will be allowed because the Church needs it(as you observe by the mess in the Church today).
What about "pledging allegiance"? We don't pledge allegiance, we consecrate
ourselves. And in prayer 33, which Father are we pledging our allegiance to? The Father of truth? Or the Father of lies? To whom do we bow in humble servitude?
Up until these messages, I have never heard of these expressions before, the more I ponder them, the more I question, and wonder if this is Satan's way of obtaining allegiance (sneaky as it is) with the promise of paradise just like he promises paradise to those who pledge their allegiance to him in the Masonic Lodges. These and many other questions have plagued me since I turned my back on these messages. Please also view this website http://mariadivinemercytrueorfalse.blogspot.com.au/
If you are are truly seeking the truth, remember deciding to enter into a schism is serious, it is a matter of eternal life or death…
A few words from a person whose family members are involved in the cult of Maria Divine Mercy.
I have been talking again with Mary McGovern's, MDM's disciples who continue
on their mission to spread her “bad news” rather than the Good News of Jesus Christ. True to form, they run away whenever the legitimacy of this controversial seer is challenged. Any criticism of their cult leader is anathema to them.(So much for following the exhortation of St. Peter to be prepared to give a reason for the hope that lies within you.) Their obstinate resistance and complete disregard for all the thoughtful, very Catholic reasons for rejecting their pet prophet, suggests a strong diabolical influence. It is obvious, MDM’s “Books of Truth” have become their new canon of Sacred Scripture. Whatever their counterfeit Messiah proclaims from the heavens of cyberspace is unquestionably true. Do MDM'ers need proof? No. It is all about their feelings and a whole pile of conspiracy theories starting with Pope Paul VI being replaced by an impostor according to Veronica Leuken, the late Bayside seer of New York. Cult followers repeatedly fail to make any distinction between private and public revelation and yes, they routinely refer to these books as an addition to the Holy Bible. Somehow, even citations from the Catechism of the Catholic Church, fails to penetrate their hearts. There is the morality of relativism and then there is the theology of relativists.
Accordingly, the heretics are none other than all opponents of MDM; they must be “liberals”; have their “heads in the sand,” or are simply too fearful to face reality that Holy Mother Church has already completely “disintegrated,” having been disemboweled by the architects of evil who have destroyed her from within.
Bottom line, her cult followers do not care who MDM is. They believe the messages because they want to. They are comfortable in their tight little "prayer" groups and do not want to be excluded from them. No matter that their allegiance to MDM is alienating them from their true family, the Church. Meanwhile, MDM opponents, do all the hard work of comparing and contrasting MDM's counterfeit Jesus with legitimate Catholic sources to verify if what "he" says coincides with the deposit of faith.All too often, the dissimilitudes are remarkable. There is just no way that Our Lord and the Blessed Mother could be spewing forth the nonsense and vitriol so characteristic of the W2C website. Why M&M disciples continue to consume all the offals from this website, like so much junk food served at a circus carnival, is a mystery: the mystery of iniquity.
Why? How could this happen to so many good members of the Church? The most adamant of them, have been reading end time prophecies about the hidden "Third Secret of Fatima," the chastisement, 'the Warning' most of their lives; worse yet, they have been spoon feeding these to their children. The cold war may be over but they still preach humanity will be wiped out by nuclear war and that Russia was never consecrated to Our Lady. Such parents, see no harm, even after their children leave home and are no longer practicing Catholics. Play the blame game. Their faith was not entirely lost because of corrupt or diluted teaching from so-called Catholic institutes of learning. Maybe, just maybe, it is time these parent's took some responsibility because their brand of Catholicism was so centered on sensationalism and doomsday scenarios that religion left a bad taste in the mouths of their children.
Before their children ever realized the marvelous plan God had prepared for them in this life, their disgruntled relatives, had already replaced their rightful heritage, joy and hope, with terrible end time prophecies. Rather than live as children of light, in awe and wonder of God’s great act of creation and redemption, they were taught to constantly monitor for signs of the end times. Is it any wonder, they lost faith when these prophecies failed to come true? Is it any wonder these children turn a deaf ear to their parents, even today, whenever they start talking about God?
Surely, it is one thing to live in a state of grace and another to live in a constant state of anxiety with no hope of a future apart from mass destruction and annihilation.Mary McGovern/ Carberry, a.k.a. Marie Divine Mercy, isn’t the first seer to announce the angels of the Apocalypse pouring down fire from the heavens on the heads of God’s children. Sadly, she won’t be the last.
Moreover, why would the offspring of these homes want to build anything with their lives when the hand of God is already to reach out and destroy it all? Why direct oneself to solve any of humanity’s problems if one is waiting for direct divine intervention to set mankind straight once and for all? How many of these insular groups are out on the streets protesting the greatest human rights issue of our day: abortion? On no. They are too busy spreading the end of the world prophecies to bother with anything that mundane.
At some point, one has to recognize that too much curiosity about the end times is simply unhealthy. Taken to its logical conclusion, one who follows MDM would have to think Jesus had left behind unfinished business. Worse yet, MDM is constantly preaching we must redeem ourselves in God's eyes. Is a Catholic still Catholic when he thinks Jesus had not fully accomplished His Father’s mission? Let God decide when these misled members have passed a point of no return. It isn't too hard to imagine, they are out on a limb on this one and the longer they hang on the more likely it is this branch will break and they will fall.
No. We are not called to be spectators in life. God doesn't want us to sit around to view the unfolding of human history; He wants us to actively cooperate with the life-giving gifts of the Holy Spirit in order to build a civilization of love - now. We are called to spread the kingdom of God, in the Mystical Body of Christ, to all people and to all nations. If Jesus decides to come while we are thus engaged, we will have nothing to fear.
“Well done, my good and fai thful servant. . . Enter into the joy of your Master.” (Matthew 25:21-22)
I myself was a follower of Maria Divine Mercy messages. Yes, the prayers look nice but its purpose is to deceive us so that MDM will have all the right to spread heresies and attack the Head of the Catholic Church, who is Pope Francis. May we open your eyes to the Truth that we are called to pay obedience and allegiance to the Authority of the Catholic Church and all private revelations must first be evaluated and scrutinized by its authority before we should receive it. Remember that our Catholic Faith is not grounded on private revelations.
Because of MDM messages, I was very observant about the new pope's election to know if there would be some irregularities during the conclave that would prove the accusations that he is the False Prophet, but what we all witness is a very solemn election that would prove the leading of the Holy Spirit. And to add to it, personally, the Pope's election had coincidences in my life to prove more that he is the real one and remove my doubts
MDM is pro-Catholic practices and devotions, that makes it so dangerous. As a Catholic, we will not doubt her at first. But when her messages started to attack the new elected pope as the False Prophet, and campaign not to pay allegiance to the Pope and that everything that he is showing to us is fake, I saw in her messages a devil who is so jealous of the love and compassion that the new Pope is showing to the world.
I believe God allowed that some information regarding the future would be revealed to MDM, like the coincidence of the resignation of the Pope and that Pope Francis is a compassionate Pope as her previous message a year ago said, but its very purpose I believe is to test the faith of the believers to the Catholic Church. But thanks to MDM, it became one of my greatest lessons in Faith after following her message for more than a year, and it renewed my faith and my trust in the ONLY Authority that Jesus Christ Himself has entrusted His Church: The One, Holy, Apostolic and Catholic Church.
In the days to come, MDM is envisioning a Remnant Church with all Catholic devotions and
practices, with priests to celebrate the mass, but not in communion with the Pope in Rome that she hates so much. Only Satan hates much the successor of the Seat of Peter and doesn't like the style of Pope Francis because he will be close to the people and the people will love him so much as their new Pope.We need to go to the basics and read the CCC.
For a while, I've been hooked on MDM message because I also experienced in 2011 something that I believe a personal private revelation as a Charismatic Renewal member.
An important note about the crusade prayers based on personal experience from all my family members:
When the first crusade prayer came out in November 2011, my family and l started to pray it every evening after our daily Rosary.
As time went by, more and more prayers came. I remember how impressed we were by many of the prayers. To give an example, where
l live, explicit sex education is becoming obligatory by law from the age of 4 and up. One can imagine how appalled we were as parents of 2 small children, also my parents, their grandparents.
One of the prayers was especially dear to us in this regard: we prayed with the words of the crusade prayer to 'cover our children with the precious blood of Jesus, to protect them from the lies of Satan.' l can give many more examples of how these prayers seemed to offer protection against the awful moral degeneration in our world today.
Even when the so called prophetic messages at times seemed outrageous, when we prayed our crusade prayers each evening, they continually convinced us over and over again that these prayers were a custom made gift from heaven for our world falling into total chaos. We were promoting the prayers everywhere as we were, in hindsight rather embarrassed by the messages.
The prayers on the other hand managed to convince others. We passed them on to 3 priests and they too were rather impressed at the start... Prayers that promised to ward off nuclear war, mitigate chastisements in the form of natural disasters, prevent liberal abortion laws from being passed, special prayers for the salvation of souls: we truly believed that next to the chaplet of Divine Mercy and the Most Holy Rosary, Heaven was blessing us with special graces through these prayers.
So we ended up spending more and more hours in prayer, less time critically discerning the messages until prayer 100 was issued: one family member refused to pray this rather strange prayer stating that Pope Benedict was the last true pope. In the following days, an enormous argument broke out, causing division in our family prayer group.
By the grace of God we sought spiritual direction, at the same time pledging our obedience to our new Pope. Our spiritual director put our hearts at ease when he told us that the many hours spent praying these prayers were not in vain as we prayed them sincerely, with purity of intention.
Here comes the amazing conclusion: whatever we had prayed for, if it was in line with the will of God, those prayers were answered in Heaven, EVEN if the author - and this is the hard part to understand- is not from Heaven!!!
All l would like to underline here is that the prayers are the real trap for most of the followers because of the many special graces and favours they promise to bestow. When we realized Pope Francis was a blessing from Heaven and therefore the messages false, we immediately stopped praying these prayers but continued with our daily Chaplet and Rosary. Guess what?
Peace returned to our family, andour prayer time once again turned into real quiet time with the Lord instead of a vocal marathon, impossible to keep up with!
I was once fascinated with MDM's alleged messages. I kept reading new updates and messages on her website, and I even became a member of their internet prayer group, downloaded the prayer crusades and contacted some of the members, but even then I was hesitant to be completely devoted to the group.
So I prayed for God's guidance because despite being a member I was not fully convinced of her authenticity especially that some of her predictions didn't take place, so I was just watchful and never actually joined the prayer group in their weekly prayer schedules.I quit my membership from Facebook and had my name and email erased from their member's list after confessing and asking my priest friend to enlighten me about MDM.
What bothers me most is the Totus Maria page. It's a Facebook account devoted to the Blessed Virgin. It's Catholic and I was shocked to see MDM's 'Book of Truth' being promoted on their page as well as the alleged messages and prayers supposedly given by Jesus. A lot of people are being deceived.
I emailed them asking them to stop promoting MDM and told them that if they are true Catholic they should not oppose Pope Francis and the Catechism of the Catholic Church, but until now I haven't received any word from them and they keep defending MDM.
I just I need more help to convince them to stop spreading word about MDM because the people who do not know the true agenda of MDM accept what Totus Maria is posting on their page.
Totus Tuus, Maria is a community of Catholics who live by the motto of the late Pope John Paul II: Totus Tuus, Maria, or "Totally Yours, Mary.
But that is not what this page is really about.
The page heavily promotes Maria Divine Mercy's Crusade prayers. Among beautiful Christian pictures and quotes from the Saints, most of the posts consist of Crusade Prayers with the shortened url to 'WarningSecondComing' organisation.
The Facebook page is linked to a website, which appears in Google search as a paid advertisement and which gives a 'critical' review of 'The Book of Truth' (we see nothing critical about it), with the link where you can buy it. It also asks for donations.
Looks like poison in a cup of pleasant brewed coffee to us.
The following are the testimonies of people who had followed Maria Divine Mercy until the election Pope Francis, when their eyes were opened to the MDM deception. MDM had been preparing her followers for the new impostor pope ,who would be a false prophet mentioned in the Book of the Revelation. In the messages dated March 13 (which is the date of Pope Francis election), MDM message said, 'My beloved Pope Benedict XVI was persecuted and fled, as foretold. I have not appointed this person, who claims to come in My Name. (...) His throne (Pope Benedict XVI's) has been stolen. His power has not." Well, these people have not been taken in.
Testimony from a former Crusade Prayer Coordinator
That day, March 13, I had a Crusade Prayer Group at home, and we were praying MDM prayers. I had in the next room the TV on, just in case. TV almost silent, when shouts started to came out... 'White smoke!!!' We waited in excitement, thinking the False Prophet would appear now... WHEN, my saint and beloved Cardinal appeared on the balcony... I did not doubt a second.. We were six women praying. Two of them still follow MDM but are not convinced. The other four meet here in my apartment praying every Wednesday - but for Francis, the Church, etc.
The following day, March 14 I resigned as coordinator of my whole country, Argentina. I had to face plenty of criticism on the part of people from Argentina that were indignant...and still are. I am absolute confident about Pope Francis. His informality, humility and whatever you see in his gestures, attitudes are HIM as always has been. But, he takes due time to take important decisions as you may see that the eight Cardinals are studying all that happens about the Curia, and only October 3 they will have an official meeting but I am sure Francis will stand firm on these issues. I knew of MDM messages, when she began, through Joyce Lang list. And yesterday we knew that that list was not discerned properly!
Maria, Argentina
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"I knew he was a good man"
I started reading the messages about a year and a half ago. They got my attention because they were coming quite frequently. I liked the idea that Jesus was talking to us and guiding us through these times. There were a few things that bothered me in the messages at first, but I dismissed them because I really wanted to believe in them. I did, thank goodness, constantly ask God to not let me be deceived because ten years ago I followed some seers whose writings were very similar to MDM's and they turned out to be false. They warned that the Pope after John Paul II would be a false Pope, a False Prophet. Of course we know that Pope Benedict was not a False Prophet.
So here I was again being told that the next Pope after Pope Benedict would be a
False Prophet! Now part of me still wanted to believe because I wanted what was being offered..Safety during the tribulations, healings, and a beautiful paradise waiting for us, the chosen ones. Yet still a part of me held back because I had been fooled once. Then out of the blue Pope Benedict resigned! At first I took this to be a sign, but try as I might I could not fit his resignation in with the prophecy that told us he would be "ousted"
Now it all rested on the new Pope. Of course we had been warned that he would appear to be meek and humble... a "wolf in sheep's clothing" so I knew I would have to really look beyond his 'show' of humility, because if he really was the "Beast" "Evil and "Cunning" as the messages had warned, then he could never have been able to disguise his real nature all of his life.
When I saw Pope Francis on that balcony I couldn't believe it. I didn't have to be told... I knew he was a good man, and had been all of his life, caring for the poor and the downtrodden. His whole life reflected Christ's!
I went back into Facebook wondering how the others felt now that we had a Pope..and a good one at that. Surely they would be angry that we had all been deceived by yet another false prophet..but this wasn't the case. I watched as they desperately searched for anything that would make the Pope look bad! I stayed and tried to reason with a few of them. These were good people, but their NEED to believe the messages meant they had to dislike the Pope. His humility wasn't real, they told themselves. And so it went on...
This search for the slightest thing with which to blacken a good man's name...and It's still going on. I firmly believe that the messages are coming from Satan and that MDM is herself being deceived. It's heart breaking to see our brothers and sisters caught up in that cult.
I was a follower of Maria Divine Mercy messages for a month, almost up till Easter 2013.
The Holy Spirit showed me the truth on 3rd March 2013. It is the blackest period in my life and I'm not proud of it! But luckily the Lord has made me into a very strong soldier. There are attacks on me because I know about them a lot, about their feelings, thoughts, emotions.
How did I start reading MDM messages? At first I saw them on friend's Facebook page and started to read them. I was a believer so I started to read them at first only just because I was curious. I wasn't sure if they were true, so I read them cautiously.
I showed those messages to my prayer group leaders and asked them to listen Jesus' words - in our village we have a fellowship, a prayer group where we read from the Bible and sing worship songs, listen to the Word of God and pray. They are my friends, and they prayed so that I would stop following those messages.
My husband also prayed for me - he didn't know what to think about MDM, he listened to my opinion, and it made sense to him. However, he preferred to read the Bible while I was reading MDM messages and praying those "Crusade prayers".I was so upset that they didn't believe "Jesus" - I would almost scream, 'Hey, listen everybody, Jesus is here, he wants to talk to us, and we should listen to Him!' but I was the only one who believed those messages.
We all knew the Holy Spirit, we knew how is it when the Holy Spirit is talking to you, and I knew it as well.And I don't know why I didn't realize that it was not Him.It was enough for me to read some of the messages and Satan started to work on me, I believed those messages though they didn't sound like Jesus.
After I started reading those messages I felt a bit disturbed, but I was praying a lot! Much more than before, so I thought I was changing for better. My faith seemed much stronger!
But usually during everyday activities I kept thinking about our future, the future of my children. For example, I always sing under the shower - I sing Gospel songs but those days I wasn't singing... I was only thinking, 'how will it be?!' I lost my joy.
My friends realised that as well, but they also saw that I was afraid, they could see fear in me, and fear is not from Jesus. I was upset with them and insisted that it was not fear that I felt. I insisted it was absolutely normal to 'wait' for the 'Second Coming'. They tried to convince me that those messages are not from God, but I felt that they wanted to hurt me and they are silly! But one sentence from the Bible that they gave me really spoke to my heart:
"For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many" (Mt 24: 5).
It was that one week when the Holy Spirit started working in me - though I didn't stop reading those messages right away: I was only upset with others that they do not believe in Jesus. Still I was only thinking about that sentence from the Bible. During that week my friend, who also followed MDM messages, was very scared and couldn't sleep. Her little child always also kept having nightmares and she couldn't sleep either because of those messages and nightmares - so I sent her a very good prayer against Satan. My family was also affected, we all kept getting a cold, and my little baby (only 5- months-old) couldn't sleep and was very sick as well. So I started to pray that prayer against Satan too. After saying that prayer the baby could sleep a bit better and I wanted to sleep as well, but I couldn't because I was a bit upset by the messages. As I was looking for my prayer book in my drawer I found another book that I had got from my friend, and I felt sorry that I had kept it for a year in my drawer without having read it... so I started to read it!
That book (written by a Hungarian priest) spoke about Satan as well! It was about spiritual warfare and it teaches about Satan - how to see demonic influences, and how to pray against Satan. As I read it, it felt as if Jesus was talking to me with those words. It was really an incredible, fantastic book! It also warned against false prophets (not about MDM specifically) and as I read about false prophets,I felt Jesus was next to me and telling me that MDM was false as well!
But I still was not ready to believe it. I kept thinking about that sentence from the Bible, I was curious what is in Matthew chapter 24.
So in the evening the next day, when I used to read MDM messages and prayers, that day I started with reading the Bible - Matthew 24. And it was amazing! I felt the Holy Spirit, it was fantastic! Though at the same time I felt myself so dirty...
I was also very embarrassed. I didn't know how I would act, because I was very aggressive against everybody in my prayer group who didn't believe in MDM messages.
After this, everything got much nicer! Even the way the sun was shining, or how the trees were waving, ; the sky was bluer - and I felt a great relief! I told my husband that I was wrong - that MDM is not a true prophet, and I told my friends the same. I don't understand how this could happen to me, my faith was so strong, even my heart was healed by Jesus a year before, so I don't know why I fell for those messages!
My adventure with MDM messages started by accident. I was a nominal Catholic my whole life, but when my son was born I wanted it to change.
I come from a Catholic family, so after my son was born I wanted to have him baptised - which I did when he was eight months old. This new, rather forced, encounter with the Church brought about by the situation made me think again about my faith. Unfortunately, my return to my faith was more painful than it would seem at first. They say that curiosity is the first step to hell, and I took that step out of curiosity when I came across MDM messages.
Fascination
The messages seemed beautiful at first glance, though there was something in them that made me feel afraid. As I kept reading them, my psychological condition would deteriorate. I started feeling low, I kept imagining the end of the world, and I cried a lot because I felt sorry for my child - despite all those beautiful promises that those messages contained. I felt that I was worse than others, that I was a terrible sinner, and only then did I realize how many mistakes I had made in my life. I thought to myself, 'How good it was that I came across MDM messages because thanks to them I converted'. But I was wrong.
The messages contained numerous Crusade prayers, it was impossible to say them all during one day, least of all to pray the Rosary or the Divine Mercy Chaplet. But one day, I downloaded the prayer of the 'Seal of the Living God' and available 'Crusade' prayers. I prayed the seal of the living God a few times - maybe five times, and a few Crusade prayers at a time. I found it was very difficult for me to pray them; I felt tired, I seemed to be out of breath as if I had just ran in a marathon.
I had a strange feeling as if something wanted to enter into me through my forehead... I know this sounds funny but this is what it felt like. I also prayed the Rosary and the Divine Mercy chaplet but with so much fear that the slightest noise would set me off. In addition to that, there were dreams, and some of them were not pretty at all.
Strange dreams
I know we should not believe in dreams, but they made me think. My first dream was like this: I was standing, surrounded by darkness, on one side I felt the power of good, and on the other side - the evil, and then someone started pulling me from both sides - as if someone fought over me which way I should be pulled. Then I turned to the evil side and I said, 'Let go of me, I believe in God!' and it let go of me and the dream was over. I thought to myself, 'That is great, it is probably the devil who is angry because I am reading MDM messages and I am a soldier of God!'
My joy lasted till I had the next dream. I dreamed of the cross on fire, and something wanted to pull my child from my arms. I was petrified, but still it didn't really make me think.
But the third dream did. I dreamed of my deceased father who was very angry with me. He and my mom yelled at me, they accused me of being in the cult - they told me to confess to it, but I just kept denying it. I woke up and I could not stop crying...
Breaking free
That same day I got a message from a woman who was a complete stranger to me. She found out that I was reading MDM messages, and she warned me against them. We talked for a long time and after that I threw away 'the seal; and I stopped praying the Crusade prayers, I started praying the Rosary and the Divine Mercy Chaplet. These prayers soothed me; I no longer felt afraid. I felt peace for quite some time but whenever I had anything to do with the subject of MDM something bad would start to happen. Three times precisely at 3.15 am (I know because I checked the time) I was awakened by a terrible stench of something burnt.
The first time it was really unbearable, the second it was not as bad, it seemed that something stinking was lying next to me, the third time I felt bad stench coming from my child's bed. After the first night I also found I had bruises on my right knee in the shape of a hand. I thought it could be mine son's hand, but his fingers are tiny so it could not be him.
And there was a night, not so long ago, around 4 a.m. my son woke me up, as he usually does, so I took him to my bed and laid him next to me. After five seconds I closed my eyes and I heard the hissing sound and I felt a bump on my head, and this bump seemed to have gone right through me with this hissing sound. I cannot explain what it felt like, it was like this invisible bump on my head, and I could not sleep till morning.
I know that there are more people who have had similar experiences. Maybe it'd be good to talk about it.